Confidence-boosting playlist + short life update!

What a lovely, surprisingly-chilly Tuesday, huh? How have ya’ll been this week? I hope things are getting off to a great start with you. Keep on keeping on, babes. Like I mentioned in my earlier posts, I’m in that awkward soul-searching stage of my life (bahhhhumbug!) so I’m dwelling in the realm of self-care and “the meaning of life”-type stuff. You know, the norm. 😉

And bless the stars- I feel like writing! Huzzah! I haven’t exactly writer’s block, per say, I just didn’t care and have enough drive to actually do it. Which, as a lover of both reading and writing, TOTALLY sucks and it bummed me out. But I’d rather much focus my energy and passions today on my blossoming creativity!

Recently, I’ve decided to update my Feel-Good Playlist to a more specific Hell-Yes-I’m-Hot Playlist. The kind of music that makes me sway my hips, sing my heart out, and believe every kind thing anyone (including myself) has said about my body and mind. A girl has to feel like a mega babe and these songs truly make me feel like the temple of my body is worth regarding as sacred.

Here goes:

“Anklebiters”- Paramore

“Grow Up”- Paramore

“Bravado”- Lorde

“Tennis Court”- Lorde

“BO$$”- Fifth Harmony

“Salute”- Little Mix

“Wings”- Little Mix

“All About That Bass”- Megan Trainor

“How To Be A Heart breaker”- Marina & The Diamonds

“Fancy”- Iggly Azalea; covered amazingly by Megan Nicole

“Legendary Lovers”- Katy Perry

“Dark Horse”- Katy Perry

“Pretty Girl Rock”- Keri Hilson

“Changin’ Me”- Cady Groves

What songs do you listen to when you need a little reminder of your awesomeness?

As for my life, I’ve of course been reading tons every day. I’m back to exercising every day (Yay! I missed you!), still trying to eat enough and healthy, and I have a Psychiatrist appointment today. It’s been forever, so I’m actually pretty stoked about it! I’ve even found a nice little bedtime routine to calm me down for sleep AND express my gratitude towards the Universe. Sounds like a winner, eh? Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have an empty house full of quiet to get back to. Wishing you guys some inner peace. 🙂

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Self-care, aww yisss.

Happy Sunday, babes. Woo for me finding the will and energy to write a little! *woooo’s loudly* This shall be a short post, just wanted to share a few things that are in my self-care toolkit. It’s been tough to be me for some reason lately- like, NO reason- so I’ve been focusing on myself and my well being hardcore.

Violet The Radiant’s Self-Care List~

1. Books. Lots and lots of books. I may have a reading problem. I checked out nineteen (I REPEAT NINETEEN) books from my local library a few days ago.

2. Pay extra attention to my fishies and making sure they have enough food and that their space is clean.

3. Music that gives me good vibes. Will post an updated feel-good playlist sometime in the future.

4. Art therapy. Learned this one in Alexian and it’s never failed me. Creativity is good for the soul!

5. Computer games because hell yeaah.

6. Taking some time to think of others and/or help them out. A friend was feeling suicidal but a pep talk and some OITNB distractions worked beautifully. I’m glad I could help her get a good night’s sleep!

7. Kittens. I have yet to cuddle them so far :c

8. Pampering myself; this means body butter, bubble bath, warm shower, nail polish, face mask, scrubs, etc. It feels good to be me right meow.

What are some things on your list?

I think I’m in that part of my life that they call “Soul Searching”.

Hello, lovelies of the Internet! I’m hoping ya’ll haven’t shunned me by now for making so little posts lately. I honestly just didn’t feel like writing. I’m in that hella awkward stage of my life where I have no idea what I’m doing or what to do. My brain is all over the place. If you were to look up Violet’s Life in a dictionary right now, the picture next to it would literally just be a question mark. Do any of you guys know what’s going on? Because I sure as hell don’t.

So I can make any promises right now as far as posting is concerned (and no, I haven’t forgotten about D & T Tuesdays). I’m hoping to write daily again to share things with you darlings and also to improve my writing skills. However, I’m focusing on my self-care at the moment and I just want to get my shit together.

I have quite a few goals for myself this month so I’m spending as much of my energy as I can pulling myself together and tackling them. I know this isn’t a very positive post but I wanted you guys to know that being cheerful and optimistic doesn’t mean you don’t have shitty or disappointing days.

Farewell for now, friends. Keep your chins up! Tomorrow is a new day and the world is waiting for your beautiful self to enjoy it.

Gotta let it happen.

Hello, darlings! How are you? Have you been enjoying this deliciously strange summer? I hope all is well with you all. If you’re having a rough week already, remember that there is someone (& I’m sure more than just me!) wishing you well and rooting for you. You are loved, even if it’s by a sort-of-weirdo and unknown blogger! ♥ ♥ ♥
I’m back from my small Hiatus loves and, well, I’m pretty fucking positive! I don’t know if it’s the restful sleep I achieved last night, my willingness to go on more adventurous-type things, or the amazing music- regardless, I’m happy to be happy. I feel forever grateful.
Here’s what’s happened in the days i haven’t been blogging; I promise I’ve been super busy and not just neglecting ya’ll:
Thursday my beautiful Mermie took off work to help me out with birthday party preparations. It was nice spending a little time with her (as always).
Friday I turned nineteen! 🙂 *throws sparkly confetti and toasts with champagne* I tend to treat birthdays as very celebrations these days. It amazes me that not too long ago- three years- I woke up on my birthday and hated my life. I hated me. I was in so much fucking pain and was very much suicidal. I cannot describe the extent of my sorrows- that’s partially why I took comfort in self-harm, it was a way of expressing the pain that had no words to describe it. But now, right now, I am content. I am happy and feeling like a warrior and I have defeated the demons; or at least I have this morning. That’s a good enough victory for me. So I partied like no other champion: I got all gussied-up, met up with my sleepy bestie M in the late morning to catch up- she was out of state for ten days, man- and exchange birthday gifts. I missed her loads so it was lovely seeing her. Even her kitten Lucy quite enjoyed the assorted ribbons and wrapping paper spread out on her bed, haha. Then I cuddled with J and played a little with the cat and his two little dogs. We ended up grabbing Steak and Shake (the Birthday Caked Milkshake is freaking life-changing, by the way) and hung out with the lovely adoptable cats at the local Petsmart. Then we bought some fries and headed home to watch Archer on Netflix. My parents were as awesome as usual and gave me hugs and my favorite sandwhich from Panera. It was a blessed day.
Saturday was the birthday bbq my mom had planned. C was with me the whole day being her stellar self and there was food and family/family friends galore. J and M visited later in the evening and I made some super yummy Independence Day themed cupcakes that i shall forever be super proud of.
Lastly, yesterday I tried something new and drove up to Bristol, WI with a classmate for the Ren Faire! It was incredible; even better than I had dreamed it would be. It was truly magical and something I’ll have to do again next year for sure.
Which brings us to today~ chilling in my room, enjoying my self-love date (Gala Darling is totes a genius). Nope, I didn’t forget about my last D & T challenge, sillies. 😉

What does your self-love date look like?

Mine includes healthy food and a scoop of birthday cake ice cream as a treat, majorly uplifting songs from Paramore’s latest album (of course), comfy pajamas, staying indoors, and reading fiction books.

PS: I found the best, most positive quote on Pinterest today. “In the midst of winter I found there was within me an invincible summer.”

Love & Energy!

A common saying among the happy and successful is that one should find something you truly love and care about and run with it; pour yourself into a beloved hobby or a craft dear to your heart. This idea sparked a hundred thoughts in my head, the most important being a growing curiosity towards human energy. Energy, as in the very essence of ourselves. According to Wicca, this word is synonymous with Magick. No matter what we call it, it is definite that we have it. Each and every day we start off with a certain amount of energy and we choose to do with it as we please. Some actions/behaviors drain us, some exhaust us, some make us burst with an overflow of energy, and some give and take equally. For example, exercise. It takes energy and effort to work out for half an hour, but it also exchanges some of that old energy with new. What I’m trying to say is this: every day we decide to put our efforts and the little pieces of ourselves into things.

Why not tuck away these pieces into things that truly matter to us- like that “Get Well Soon” cupcake for a close friend, or an essay for a cause you believe in? You’re already giving parts of yourself away, why not make it count?

What have you been pouring yourself into lately?

Fourth round of Dares & Tears Tuesday & Post-Pride feelings

Hey, chums! How has the beginning of your week been? Has anything exciting, different, or simply pleasant happened to you? I’m truly hoping all of you internet dudes and dudettes are healthy, happy, and safe this awesome summer day. As Pride month came to a close yesterday, I was attempting to recover from the Chicago Pride Parade. It’s safe to say that Sunday SERIOUSLY tested my patience and emotional strength; it was a horrible, tear-filled day. To be honest I’m not in tip top shape yet so I don’t feel well enough to explain the entirety of that sucky situation, but I still want to share my life with you lovely strangers so I composed a sort of Pro versus Con list. Here are the basics of the day that officially makes me shudder:

Shitty things that occurred: I accidentally put nearly all my money on a train pass that only required $5. No one had planned much ahead so we were all sort of guessing where to get off from the train. The group eventually separated into two smaller groups because of a disagreement over directions. I led my J and his good friend to the very oh-so-wrong path; same street, TWO HOURS OF WALKING IN DIFFERENCE THOUGH. I THOUGHT IT WOULD NEVER END. So yeah, two hours of walking in Boystown in crazy heat. On this horrible trek I managed to slam/stub my toe onto a rock of fucking concrete and my toenail almost came all the way off- J patted me on the back and helped me get my bandaids on while I cried, fumbling around with Neosporin and desparately pushing the nail back onto the bloody pulp my toe had become, while his friend sort of watched with horror. Because of the two hour walk we. missed. the. fucking. parade. All of it. I was exhausted, starving, and dehydrated. I had four dollars to my name, because I had deemed it too risky to bring my cards so I only had cash. I was PMSing like a mofo so on top of feeling terrible I also felt incredibly jealous as an attractive, drunk-ass chick friend of J’s was touchy-feely with him when she finally met us and basically dragged him everywhere. I wanted to slice open her neck. Really, really bad day.

However, at least there were a few gems in there.

Good/Positive experiences of the day: I came super prepared minus the money part (chapstick, gum, my phone, Neosporin, bandaids, pretzels as a snack, water bottle, sunglasses, etc.). I looked- dare i say it?- incredible! When I learn how to Internet and upload pictures, I shall post some. I did my makeup Steam Punk-style, with actual metal gears and all. I looked like a total babe and I received a few compliments that made me smile. I didn’t get sunburnt because I used sunscreen, woo. two words- shirtless hotties. And also, super attractive girls. Seeing a friend for .573 seconds. My nails that look like pretty cakes with vanilla frosting and sprinkles. I tried Gellato for the first time (ahmasiiiing). No one pinched my butt. I wasn’t one of the many people who passed out. The train ride back was comfortable. J looked after me and tried to help cheer me up. I had pizza and chocolate later that day. Yaaasss.

Now, for the fourth D & T Tuesday! Grab your party hat and give yourself a high-five for being incredible and getting through that challenge! ♥ Here is a recap of how I approached the dare~

What I did: Went back to the library to check up on my application (which terrified me), surviving all of the horror for me which was Chicago pride (trusting my gut but still being wrong and leading two people astray by accident), and in general wearing a slightly-revealing outfit in Chicago, even though my body image isn’t super fabulous yet.

How it felt doing it: In general, scary, anxiety-ridden, and fearful. It sucked, but I’m proud of myself for accomplishing what I did and learning a couple lessons as a result.

Am I inspired to do something similar? I can’t give this one an honest yes. I don’t really know how to feel about it yet (fear is a huge obstacle for me) and I think I’m still processing it and weighing the possible consequences.

Pamper yourself a little today for facing a fear of yours, no matter how small. You did good, buddy 🙂

Now, this week’s challenge is particularly interesting to me. I triple-dog-dare ya’ll to Participate in Gala Darling’s July Instagram challenge for an entire week. Yep. You don’t need an Instragam for this- I personally don’t have an account- and can do this as privately as you’d like! Here’s a link to her blog post about it: http://galadarling.com/article/radicalselflovejuly-an-instagram-challenge/.

Basically, I dare you guys to take a picture corresponding to the appropriate day’s theme and keep them somewhere; perhaps a photo album, your RSL bible, or a scrapbook? The possibilities are endless! I strongly encourage you guys to do the entire month, but at the very least I dare you to do her prompts starting today and ending on next Tuesday. I, of course, will be doing them right along with you!

Are you as thrilled/intrigued about this challenge as I am? How did facing your fears go last week?

♥ ♥ With much love, silliness, and comfort being sent your way. ♥ ♥