It can be really hard to get back up. I’m not sure why, but even when the obstacles present in our life seem small and insignificant, they can still pose great challenge. Especially when you’ve gone through things much worse (hello, week stay in a mental hospital) and so you feel silly for being so “dramatic”. But regardless of how big or meaningful or dire the bumps in the road are, each time we manage to go climb over them it still feels like a battle- and when you’ve overcome that teeny tiny hill, it still fills you with accomplishment and bravado.
So while last night I had heartburn a thousand times more painful and harder to work through (heartburn is fucking killer :l) than the emotional obstacles I faced yesterday, it. Was. Still. Hard. Long story short, I began this blog on another blogging site, blog.com. It was literally the first free website that come up, and I instantly fell in love with the admin process, layout of posts, and the gorgeous, fairytale theme. Unfortunately, this excitement only lasted two days, as although my blog technically still exists somewhere in the vast land of Internet, the website has deleted all recollection of me as its admin and therefore says I have zero posts and whatnot. Yep, kind of a bummer. Oh, and their help/support page apparently doesn’t exist. But according to my expert snooping skills, the website hasn’t been doing well since 2013. Okay, so a few posts from the site’s official blog may that explained this may have come up on my dashboard, but I am a detective, god damnit.
Thankfully, I was able to find this lovely website right hurr that had the same stunning theme. Content sigh ♥ And while this shit was pretty much no big deal, it stressed me out like crazy because I genuinely enjoy blogging and finding hobbies that make me feel good is kind of hard for me. So that’s my story about how I freaked out over three posts on a blog I just made and nearly cried out of frustration.
Presently, I’m determined to actually do something today. My “oh-so-productive” day that I predicted? Yeah, didn’t go that well. The past few days I planted all of the flowers J and his mom passed onto my care (and my little bb’s are already growing!) but that’s where my productivity halted. For two days. But I promise,- nay, I pinkie swear!- that today is my day to shine and be hella creative and productive. I have so much to do… ;-;
Buuuut before I go, here’s a little life tip if you guys are in the difficult process of loving yourself and exploring life, surround yourself with positivity. Not just in real life either, but here on the web. I promise we don’t bite! Here’s a couple bloggers to start you off. If you haven’t already, pay the mega babes Gala Darling (http://galadarling.com/) and Veronica Varlow (http://dangerdame.com/diary/), it’s sooo incredibly worth it. They truly inspire me and I think they might inspire you too 🙂
Do you have any favorite bloggers that you think embody true self-love and inner-peace? What about writers, artists, teachers, etc.?